In the last few weeks i’ve done something i told myself, towards the end of last year and for the duration of the summer, I wouldn’t do when in my final year . . . make bad choices that lead to painfully bland work that is mind-numbingly monotonous to produce.
The approach plates look relatively cool, but i started producing them for the Star Guitar chronogram, to compile ‘The Flight Log of Michel Gondry’ for my portfolio. That should have been where i left it. At least for now. But i find myself, presently, refusing to do anything other than these approach plates, i’m allowing them to take over all ideas for my work and that is stifling my work. I’m changing to suit it rather than developing something to suit me. I’m abandoning thesis and design ideas that i had over the summer because i’m effectively hamstringing myself with this style. I want my work this year to be cohesive. 1 theme, 1 idea, with all work borne out from there.
Last year i made certain choices at various stages of the first term, unwittingly, which effectively fucked me for the rest of the year. Abandoning Blender for SketchUP. Huge mistake. Formulating a political design brief. Stifled my will to design something engaging/fun/interesting. Refusing to change/develop my style for fear of the additional work it would create. Lazy.
This year is about doing something i enjoy and about developing skills that i want to develop, 3D and After Effects. The opportunity to do so is what led me to Unit 15. In the last few weeks i lost sight of this, i was weak as i have been almost throughout my entire architectural education. The things that were interesting to me over the summer have been replaced because i let myself ‘settle’. ‘that’ll do’. ‘scrape by’
So from now on, I’m going to do better, be stronger, enjoy my work and see where it takes me.
PS Apologies for the Bridget Jones style diary entry. Blog therapy and all that.